Someday

Here I stand in the middle of emotions 
Here I stand remembering each day, each detail, each word of our best days 
The memories are like still images in my mind 
I replay them constantly 
Like my instagram feed, I scroll through them thoroughly 
Everyday I think of you
Imagining how much we grew 
Together of course 
Like stems of the same tree 
Like flowers that stayed together and still were free.

I try not to forget 
How safe and warm I felt near you 
Because now everything seems grey and blue.

I try not to forget 
The gushing of adrenaline whenever I was with you
Which I know you felt too. 
I try not to forget 
The games that we played 
In which you always won the first place.
Sometimes, you let me win and make me feel like I played great 
But I knew that it wasn’t just fate 
I try not to forget 
Our best day together 
You told me you could never forget it 
Everyday I wish you don’t 
Everyday I wish you won’t 
Every song, every movie reminds me
of you 
The littlest things are like clues 
Like keys to the locked up memories 
Once opened 
I replay them constantly.

Now that all this has changed 
You left when I needed you the most
But hey, like you always say 
Change is better 
Maybe all this will make sense, 
Someday.